me and Aphrodite, part 2
By Maewyn | October 10, 2011
This post is subtitled “When you screw up in public, you have to make it right in public, too.”
First of all, I shouldn’t have used wording implying that I’m a priestess of Aphrodite. I’m not, and I doubt I ever will be. It just ain’t in me. After 10+ years as a Pagan, I still have some old ways thinking to fix, and one of them is forgetting that there are other ways of interacting with deity than as devotee. When I was shiny and new and learning about patron deities, I had a hard time understanding that a) you didn’t have to have a patron, b) not every deity you work with is your patron, and c) some deity relationships are targeted and specific; they don’t encompass your whole life or your whole person. I’m still learning that last one.
Second, I need to get laid more, because while you can make some equivalencies between food and sex, there are differences of degree that I was overlooking. You may see some triple chocolate brownies and go ohh, I need some of that, but they’re still brownies. You’re not going to take risks or do stupid things or endanger yourself or your existing relationships to get brownies. Eating the brownies is not really a transcendent experience. So on that point, I will say that if I’m sitting here wondering why I seem to be the only person trying to work in non-sexual qualities of Aphrodite and skimming the Theoi page about Her and not finding much, that may be because it doesn’t work. Watering it down like that leaves no space for someone who really does understand the power of sex and lust, someone who can wield that power and is fulfilled and energized by it.
I do have some more genuine experience of Aphrodite than the feel of different fabrics on my skin, and I might post about that if I’m comfortable with the detail (there’s that prude thing again). I just wanted to get this out right away because a friend gently pointed out how I’d written a few things that I’d have ripped on someone else for writing, and once I realized that, I didn’t want to let my last post stand.
